"It's Raining" Thoughts

Currently it's raining. Rain makes me just want to curl up in a blanket and watch Netflix all day. If only life worked like that right? Ah, oh well, we all get some of those days; it's called childhood. When you're young and have no responsibilities you can pretty much do whatever and not have to worry about responsibilities as much as when you get older. When you're older and have a job and homework and maybe a girlfriend/boyfriend, those days just disappear.

I just feel that as we get older and older, we loose innocence and the feelings of innocence. We focus too much on what we have to get done and who will be mad if we don't and those sorts of things. Thinking on it, it sounds awful; to be in a constant state of worrying. Very few people get the chance to actually go back and have those "lazy days." I miss them. They were so nice. Now when I try to sit and watch something, I forget I had homework, or I get a call/text I need to reply to. It sucks honestly.

I talked about this with one of my friends once. We someone got on the topic of being busy and never having time to do stuff we love. Of course I do YouTube, and that's something I love, but I am always so rushed to do it. I hardly every have time to film, and when I edit I do it as fast as I can cause I usually have something else going on. I don't want it to be something I have to rush through. It's not as fun that way. Basically my friend told me that one day I would get a day sometime where I just did nothing, and accepted it. That day has not come yet, and I could really use a stress-free day.

When we try to have a day that's stress-free, it seems like everything goes against that, and it turns out to be a day filled with stress and it turned out to be so much worse than you planned it to be. That idea is kind of how I feel about vacations. At least for my family, it's fun to plan and fun to get there, but when you're somewhere new you're constantly checking locations and trying to get somewhere without dying. Then you fight with other family members and everyone just gets mad. It's a vicious cycle, and it seems vacations are way more stress than they need to be. It's supposed to be a time of relaxing a fun, but it can end up being a dreaded experience.

Just a few thoughts from me as I sit at my desk, glancing out of the window as this mass of rain hits the pavement.

~Isaac